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Finding peace through prayer

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Elevated heart rate.

Tight chest.

Constricted throat.  

Dread of what new problem or heartache the day would bring.

All this and I had yet to open my eyes.  Another day of anxiety waking me before the sound of the alarm. Day after day of waking like this caused me to dread morning while I was yet asleep.   This terrible cycle eventually birthed a beautiful new habit that has changed me.

I took my troubles to the Lord; I cried out to him and he answered my prayer. ~Psalms 120:1 (NLT)

Somewhere in the mess, I gave up what I knew I had no control over and began praying before my eyes even opened.

Please Jesus, give me the strength to get through this day.

Protect my child from the attacks of the enemy.

Calm my anxious heart and racing mind.

Let me see your work in this day.

My desperate pleas would continue until the anxiety lifted or the alarm began to signal that it was time to face the day, anxiety or not.  There were many days my feet hit the ground and the anxiety and heavy heartedness lingered.  I continued my pleas throughout the day. Lift the anxiety and heaviness and turn my gaze toward You.  He did. Every single time.  It didn’t mean that those days were less problem filled, BUT there was peace in knowing that He already knew what the day held and I was not alone.

I know the Lord is always with me.  I will not be shaken for he is right beside me. ~Psalms 16:8 (NLT)

Cultivating the habit of going to the Lord in the face of the turmoil I was feeling before entering into the day set me free from the bondage of anger and dismay that I had experienced a little over a year prior.  The circumstances of the trial the previous year were different, but the anxiety and stress they evoked were the same.  Fear. Worry. Disappointment. Anger. A sense of losing all control. Dread of what was to come.  Throughout that experience, rather than giving it over to the Lord and asking Him to walk me through it, draw me closer, I let anger and panic take over instead. I woke every morning before the alarm with a knot in my stomach, heart racing, and  mind reeling with every possible way this disaster could become even more of a disaster.  I spent the better part of each day consumed by grief and anger, feeling frantic, sad, and sick to my stomach.  And guess what.  Every single worst case scenario that I could come up with came true and then some. It was all as bad or worse than I feared and I was facing it in a way that only caused more damage.  While my bitterness and anger did nothing to help fix the situation, it was destroying me.  The only control I had in the face of that trial was how I reacted to it, faced it, handled it. I couldn’t stop it or change it; however, I could have stopped to pray and changed the way I entered into those challenging, heartbreaking days.

I’m sure I prayed throughout that time for the situation to change, but I should have been praying for God to change me and how I was handling it. Giving it over to Him to handle and asking Him to walk me through it might have saved months of heartache and misery that I wallowed in.

The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.~Exodus 14:14 (NLT)

Fast forward to the more recent place of trouble I find myself in and the experience is so different. The problems are certainly not less significant.  In some ways they are bigger, more overwhelming.  I am so very thankful that I am different this time around. Because of Him.

Be still and  know that I am God.~Psalms 46:10a (NLT)

What a relief that HE IS GOD and I AM NOT!

What have I learned through this?  When I give my problems to Him, He shows up.  He gives peace.  He will supply what I need each day if I just ask for it.  The key is to ask for it.

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything.  Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.  Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand.  His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 4:6-7 (NLT)

Notice these verses do not promise that your problems will go away.  They promise something far greater-PEACE that only He can give.  Experiencing peace in the midst of trouble is an amazing gift.  We live in a fallen, sinful world.  We all experience trying times.  We all struggle at times.  Periods of hardship in life are guaranteed.  BUT, we do not have to face them alone!  We CAN find blessing in the midst of the storm.  Expect to see God’s hand in your day and you will begin to see Him everywhere, making even the most difficult path bearable and even beautiful in Him.

The Lord himself will fight for you.  JUST STAY CALM~Exodus 14:14

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He Already Knows

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Psalm 34:4 I sought the Lord and He answered  me; He delivered me from all my fears.

Heavenly Father,

You knew that early morning call would come, ripping us out of bed with news we were not prepared for. Please help us to think clearly and speak with wisdom.

You knew that Plan A, which had been put into place a month ago would not be possible. Thank you for providing another option.

You knew that this situation would come about and that there would be nothing that we could do to prevent it, change it, or control the outcome. With open hands I give you my precious loves.  I know that you love them even more than I do.  I pray your protection around them.  Please send your mighty angels to protect them.

2 Corinthians 5:7 For we live by faith, not by sight.

You know what this day will hold. Please guide, protect, and hold all of us in the face of the unknown.

You know that I am not sure what to do next.  Please hold my hand and walk me through each hour and each new development of this situation.

Isaiah 40:29 He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.

You know that Satan is at work in this very moment using trickery and promises to cloud judgment. PLEASE open my dear ones eyes!  PLEASE let her see and make decisions from what is TRUE.  Please protect her even while she is blinded by the enemy.

Hebrews 10:23 Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who is promised is faithful.

You know that layers of difficulty and deceit are being added to this situation while I am still praying over it. PLEASE fix it Jesus! PLEASE work in spite of faulty human understanding. PLEASE give light in this darkness.

Psalm 45:17-18 The Lord is righteous in everything he does; He is filled with kindness.  The Lord is close to all who call on Him, yes to all who call on Him in truth.

You know that I am heartbroken and left without words.  May the Holy Spirit intercede for me.

Psalm 34:18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.

I thank you for your faithfulness.

I thank you that you are God and have power over the impossible.

I thank you that you can work a miracle in this.

I thank you that your love is beyond our understanding.

Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.